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    January 30

    假期末端

                                           

    其实我本想用马赛克把“中国人”这三个自处理下,毕竟这是几十年前的一断话。其实我读这段话的时候有点像在照镜子。

    前段发生了一些事情,我自己特别想对每一个人说清,但我必须隐瞒不能直视,因为需要退路。我就这么憋着,我知道最终都能给憋没了。所以无需节外生枝。

    有时我也会留意下他人的生活,我不知道为什么他们会活那么轻松,顺其自然和满足。而我为什么总在审视总在要求总在拧吧,我一次又一次的问自己你到底需要什么,你想怎样,做这些真的对么,做那些的结果又会是个啥。而我真的痛恨这样的思考,像我这类物实的人,花时间做这样的的思考还不如去干点实事来的让自己更有收获,如看会儿书,干点儿家务,拜访下亲戚,联系下朋友,或者从操旧业画几张画儿。我想我还是闲的,别给自己找理由。

    后天就开学了,很好。

     

    柠檬草味道的香水,柠檬草味道的记忆

    下午去看望了某人,带着昨晚匆忙又精心挑选来的食物。坐在一起吃了饭,喝了酒,看了电视,玩了打机,谈了笑了。如果不是因为养伤,可能也不会见的这么坦然。有那么几刻我真希望这只是个开始,之前的一切一切都没有发生过,但事实这是个结束,我要永远这样高姿态的维护我们的“友谊”,被我生生切割出来的友谊。转眼时间走入了第四个年头,在这三年多的时间里我们匆匆经过了多少个人?又还要继续匆匆经过多少?我没计算过,也不会计算。或许我们确实这辈子或上辈子做错了什么,才会承受如此“惩罚”。

    回来的路上,有人在放9寸礼花,很多人停下了脚步,仰望。晚上10点天空,那般绚烂。我体会着一些心情想起了《爱的代价》的旋律。

    我试用了下刚拿到的香水, 你说这香型是柠檬叶,  我在想“柠檬草的味道”似乎曾经在哪里“听说过”。 我不再回头,即便带着这味道,也不管前方又出现了什么,我都不再回头。

    January 28

    本命年

    人生在世如身处荆棘之中,心不动,人不妄动,不动则不伤; 如心动则人妄动,伤其身痛其骨,于是体会到世间诸般痛苦.
     
     
                                                                人之所以痛苦,在於追求錯誤的東西。
    January 23

    在電影中看梅蘭芳

    終于抽出了時間補習電影功課,沒抱太大希望的看了《梅蘭芳》,可能是因爲陳凱歌之前的《無極》太讓人不知所云。在《梅》的拍摄中陳凱歌没有再像拍攝《無極》那樣大膽的嘗試了一把讓人費解的“無釐頭”,可過於保守的製作讓《梅》並沒有什麽突破,很明顯的沿袭了許多《霸王別姬》裏的元素,但我不得不承認在那147分鐘裏我被吸引了,我目不轉睛的看着每一個鏡頭,我想這種吸引的源由更多是因爲蘭芳先生本有的儒雅和那種帶有力度的淡然,人物傳記電影只是在將事實重現或者進行部分戯說,所以當我被戲中的梅蘭芳感染時真正感染了我的應該是生活中的梅蘭芳先生。
    最後想說的是,或許這並不能稱爲是一部值得觀看的電影,但這部電影中的人物,應該是你去了解的。
               
     
    January 19

    小鳥和大象

                                     
                              我貌似在睡夢中看見了弗裏達和裏維拉,但我不清楚是自己先做的夢還是先想起的他們。
                                                          不過可以肯定的是,這是一個過度天真的夢。        
                                      
    January 17

    WHERE A LIFE GOSE ON?

                                                             
                                                             SO,I AM GOING HOME
                                                                        I MUST HURRY HOME
                                                                      SO WILL MY LIFE GO NO
     
                                                                      YES, I AM GOING HOME
                                                                        GOING HOME ALONG
                                                                      AND YOUR LIFE GOSE ON
                                                            
                                                 
                                                      
     
                      而事實上我也不知道爲什麽會是我。
     
    January 10

    The builder 生活正如一项为自己打造的工程/ YOUTH (转/from:Mr Qi's blog)

            An elderly carpenter was ready to retire. He told his employer of his plans to leave the house building business and live a more leisurely life with his wife enjoying his extended family1. He would miss the paycheck2, but he needed to retire. They could get by3.

      The employer was sorry to see his good worker go and asked if he could build just one more house as a personal favor. The carpenter said yes, but in time it was easy to see that his heart was not in his work. He resorted to4 shoddy5 workmanship6 and used inferior7 materials. It was an unfortunate way to end his career.

      When the carpenter finished his work and the employer came to inspect the house and handed the front-door key to the carpenter. "This is your house," he said, "my gift to you."

      What a shock! What a shame! If he had only known he was building his own house, he would have done it all so differently. Now he had to live in the home he had built none too8 well.

      So it is with us. We build our lives in a distracted9 way, reacting rather than acting, willing to put up10 less than the best. At important points we do not give the job our best effort. Then with a shock we look at the situation we have created and find that we are now living in the house we have built. If we had realized, we would have done it differently.

      Think of yourself as the carpenter. Think about your house. Each day you hammer11 a nail, place a board, or erect12 a wall. Build wisely. It is the only life you will ever build. Even if you live it for only one day more, that day deserves to be lived graciously13 and with dignity. The plaque14 on the wall says, "Life is a do-it-yourself project." Who could say it more clearly? Your life tomorrow will be the result of your attitudes and the choices you make today.

     
    一位上了年纪的木匠作好了退休的准备。他告诉老板他准备离开建筑行业,与老伴和儿孙们一起共享天伦之乐,过一种更悠闲自得的生活。虽然他因此而少了份薪水,但他想退休了。至于日子嘛,还可以凑合着过。

      眼看这位优秀的木工就要离去,老板很遗憾。他问木工可否帮忙再建一所房子。木工答应了,可明眼人一眼就看得出来,此时他做事心不在焉,做出的活儿技艺粗糙,用的料也没那么讲究了。他就这样为自己的建筑生涯划上了句号,真是令人遗憾。

      房子建好后,老板过来看新房并交给木工一把前门钥匙,说:“这房子归你了,我送给你的礼物。”

      多么让人吃惊,多么让人羞愧啊!假如他知道在为自己造房,他会做得大不一样。现在他不得不住在自己建造的那所粗制滥造的房子里了。

      我们又何尝不是如此呢?我们心浮气躁地打造生活,不是主动工作而是被动应付,能省事就省事。关键的时候也没尽心尽力。蓦然回首,才瞠目结舌地发现自己正住在自己建造的那所房子中,自食苦果。早知如此,何必当初。

      就当你自己就是那位木工吧。就当你为自己建房,每天要钉钉、铺板、砌墙。那么,你就该用心地去建。你的生活只能这样建造。哪怕你只在房子里多生活一天,这一天也应该活得优雅、有尊严。墙上的铭匾写道:“生活正如一项为自己打造的工程。”还有什么比这更清楚的呢?明日的生活之果,孕育于你今天的态度和抉择之树上。

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    Youth is not a time of life, it is a state of mind,it is not a matter of rosy cheeks, red lips and supple knees. It is a matter of the will, a it is the freshness of the deep spring of life.

      Youth means a temperamental predominance of courage over timidy, of the appetite for adventure over the love of ease. This of ten exits in a man of 60, more than a boy of 20. Nobody grows merely by the number of years, we grow old by deserting our ideas. '

         Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul. Worry, fear, self-distrust bows the beart and turns the spirit back to dust .

      Whether 60 or 16, there is in every human being's heart the lure of wonders ,the unfailing childlike appetite of what's next and the joy of the game of living . In the center of your heart and my heart there is a wireless station: so long as it receives messages of beauty, hope , cheer, courage and power from men and from infinite, so long as you are young.

      When the aerials are down, and your spirit is couered with the snows of cynicism and the ice of pessimism, then you've growm old ,even at 20,but as long as your aerials are up, to catch waves of optimism, there's hope you may die young at 80.

     

      青春不是年华,而是心境;青春不是桃面、丹唇、柔膝,而是深觉的意志、恢宏的想象、炽热的感情;青春有如一股清泉在我们的生命中涌动。

      青春气贯长虹,勇锐盖过怯弱,进取压倒苟安。此等锐气,不仅常显弱冠后生之志,更存于花甲老人之心。年岁有加,并非垂老;理想丢弃,方堕暮年。

      岁月悠悠,衰微只及肌肤;热忱抛却,颓唐必抵灵魂。忧烦、惶恐、自信殆尽,定使心灵扭曲,意气如灰。

      无论年届花甲,抑或二八芳龄,心中皆有生命之欢乐,奇迹之诱惑,孩童般天真久盛不衰。人人心中皆有一台天线,只要你从天上人间接受美好、希望、欢乐、勇气和力量的信号,你就青春永驻,风华常存。

      一旦天线倒塌,锐气便被冰雪覆盖,玩世不恭、自暴自弃油然而生,即使年方二十,实已垂垂老矣;然则只要竖起天线,捕捉乐观的信号,你就有望在八十高龄告别尘寰时仍觉年轻

    January 02

    09

    (這是09年的太陽)

     

    有人把幸福定义为:"Happiness is  whether one can love the person one lover,do the thing one likes and think what should be thought."

    曾经我认为这三样我都没有,而现在改变了多少,好转了多少,还是亦不如从前,鬼他妈知道,不过无论你是唉声叹气还是怨天尤人时间都不会为你停下一秒,所以我一直在跑,拼命的跑,怕一停下就闪到了下个世纪,但我们都明白,the direction is more important than the speed,  MY DIRECTION?想到某位朋友的妈妈说“女人在30岁前很难看清自己,很难真正明白自己适合做什么不适合做及需要什么不需要什么”,虽然我下午还在安慰Miss Zhao:每个人都是在摸索着前进,无论是生活还是事业还是感情。但我的courage貌似并没有我的安慰话“走”的坚定,而对于明天我唯一能够确定的就是我不能确定

    这是09年,我人生的第2轮,在这个混乱又纯净的地球上继续我的行走方针:挖掘“财富”,忽视“垃圾”,远离“毒药”。

    Good luck to me, to all my friends, to everyone in the world.

         (这是08年的我)